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May 10, 2010
Turmoil
I've had the WORST TIME since I moved here but I've been through worse than this, I'll survive this too.
Last night my dreams woke me up.
I was at a house party with J and her friends, but she wasn't talking to me and I didn't know anyone else and no one was talking to me, and J was talking to her friends in front of me about how terrible I turned out to be. I was just listening and trying to understand, and J said for everyone, looking at me, "We can be Friends," and then everyone turned to me and they started to laugh.
I went outside and it was raining, it was a thunderstorm. I ran to the back of the house and I looked into the clouds and I saw the lightning emanating from a single point overhead and spreading out around me and I raised my fists into the air and I screamed from the bottom of my soul, "KILL ME NOW!!!!!! " and I fell to my knees screaming, and I leaned back and I was still screaming with my fists in the air and my eyes closed shut, and then I heard more laughter.
There were two people at the back of the house, and they had been sitting there and they saw my moment, and they were laughing at me. I said "WOW, sucks you saw that. But I bet you would not be so brave."
The first one got up and said into the clouds, fists up, "kill me now."
Then the second one, same way, "kill me now."
The lightning bolt slammed down and tagged him in the head at that instant and he fell, we stood stunned for a moment and then leaped to action when he started smoking. I patted him out and treated him for shock. He had curled up into a fetal position and was stiff that way. We kept trying to pull his limbs out straight but they kept curling back. I woke up, did not go back to sleep.
I definitely notice that you do not visit anymore. Should I stop writing about other women? You are married, I am looking for love. And it doesn't look good.
Posted by K
Comments
I'm here all the time. If I had that dream my bed would be soiled (you know, I'd shit my pants). I obviously have a way with words.
I see you called me. Can you call me at work? I have no signal on my cell when in the office. What's your schedule this week?
I had a hectic weekend (notice my almost incoherent ability to jump from subject to subject). Lu is fine now, but a car had backed into her on Sat and I spent the day at the hospital. Some idiot made a right turn, decided there was too much traffic so he went to back up into the block he made a turn from. He backed into Lu on her bike. She's black and blue all over but nothings broken.
I'm crazy busy at work.
Start doing yoga. We can talk about ourflexibility. Lol.
Posted on May 10, 2010 9:50 PM
What's up with late showers? Is that a FL thing?
Posted on May 10, 2010 10:28 PM
Oh my I am so sorry to hear about L, was it some idiot Jersey driver at the pool party Saturday? Wow I would have wrung his neck on the spot, he would be sorry he was ever born. And sorry you had to spend the day worrying in the hospital instead of partying it up Jersey style. At least she's okay, nothing broken.
Late showers have become part of my routine lately, part of my coping process. I get drunk and pass out after work and then wake up later in the evening and take a long shower, then back to bed. Avoid thinking.
I am curious about flexibility. Will you be my yoga teacher?
Posted on May 10, 2010 10:46 PM