Lava Lamp

Hope you enjoy the season finale...I am swamped another final tomorrow, two more next week and then summer vacation!

Try not to let it get you crazy, I know you'll do a great job and I'm proud of you. ;)
The Office was great. Thanks to the speech last week, Jim is now with Pam, yay! Why do I care? I don't know. My vicarious love life. Best I can do.
Sweet dreams.

What happened to Roy? I thought you said Pam was going to marry him. Did Jim have a girlfriend? Is this a good thing that happened? It will surely backfire.
I haven't spoken to Roy since Monday except when absolutely necessary. This is quite impressive considering how much I talk. I don't think I will be speaking with him anytime soon. I have decided that he is an idiot. I have also decided to make him miserable. I am vengeful and he pissed me off big time. I am not sure if this makes me better than him but I believe that I am entirely justified and that is really all that matters.(Sweet smile)
How was your week? Been a while since you posted. I thought you gave up the blog.

Okay, this is what happened.

Jim was me and Pam was you and Roy was some fat guy.

Pam was engaged to Roy.

Now: Jim told Pam that he loved her, and Pam told Jim that he misinterpreted everything, a lie. Jim left town. Pam called off the wedding after all, but Jim had a new girlfriend by then so she got back with Roy.

Weeks of frustration ensued.

Last week Pam finally spoke her mind and told Jim that she called off the wedding for him and that she missed him, he was stunned by her.

Last night he broke it off with the new girl, walked in and asked Pam out to dinner. She said yes, and had tears in her eyes after he left the room.

It was insanely cute.

If I go ahead and feel good that you are mad at that guy, does that makes me insensitive? Because I do feel good about it. I didn't think you would marry him. I misinterpreted.

I know you'll stop reading after a while and that's okay, but I won't give it up. I think you recognize the symbol at the top of my page, as long as that stays there nothing has changed.

That's funny. Roy is very upset with me and he told me he is leaving tonight. I don't think that will happen.
The symbol? The sorta kinda my tattoo thing?

It's the eternal hearts necklace you gave me, the curse which plagues me to this day. You did not have that tattoo. It's mine.
I am having an interesting afternoon. More news about that later. Actualy not that interesting, just hanging out at the swimming pool telling stories of how bad I used to be and amazing my friend who thought I was always this good.
I ran out of underpants so I had to put a load in the washer before I can go back out.
I have no sympathy for that guy but I do for you so in all seriousness baby good luck I want you to be happy.

I just finished one of my finals. I can't stop shaking. It was bad. I do not know what will happen with him. I might attempt to inflict some serious bodily harm. Are you watching the game. How is it? I am on my way home but will stop at a bar first! Let me know about the game and the pool. I might be insanely jealous.

I would have grabbed you up and soothed your nerves if I had the chance, I would love to take care of you. How does it feel to know that I'm dreaming of you?
Obviously, the Mets won. Congratulations. The Yankees suck, I admit it. I left early tonight because I wanted to check if you commented, that is bad. Bad on me.

Was that your balloon that flew out on the field?

Good morning, its a beautiful day and I hope you had a great weekend. They go by so fast, grrrrr if I growl maybe it will slow down.

I was on TV!!!! Did you see me? I was booing the Yankees and doing a dance. It was great. Of course the Mets lost the last game they always do. Every Subway series is a tie. I can guarantee that the Yankees will win the next two and Mets will win one. A bit predictable but still fun.
We went to the Diamond Club and had drinks and food. I feel like a teenager. I cannot remember the last time I drank so much. We all left the kids at home so it was all grown ups. (we went with four other couples and everyone has kids). We were acting like teenagers and sad as it was when 20 yr old boys were hitting on me and Li we felt all pretty and attarctive and were strutting like we still got it going on. I actually have pictures of that!
Aside from that how was your weekend.
I am going to see Tool in Atlantic City in two weeks. I am very excited I want to hit the casinos after the concert........

I meant to write and rub our wins in your face, but my Blackberry was dead and I left the charger at the office.

I was watching for you, looking really hard and I think I hallucinated you a couple times but it's always so fast, just a flash, I couldn't tell. Just as well I don't want to see you with Roy anyway. I was wondering what happened to all the trash talking, I was prepared for it and then I was let down when it didn't happen, I growled at you grrrrrr but you didn't hear me because you're really far away.

Roy wasn't next to me. I told you I am not speaking with him so I had him sit in a different section. All the girls sat in the front and the guys in the back. So you would have seen me surrounded by eight women. Maybe that's why you didn't recognize me.

Yes, that information did capture my attention when you said it, believe me it did not go unnoticed, I just didn't think it would last this long. Every married couple I know complains about each other, I don't take it to mean anything. I never had any complaints about you though, but we weren't married of course. Did you know I was about to ask you? That's why you ran?

When did you want to ask me something? Now?
I gotta run home now, but will try to sign on again late.

Ummmmmm... no?
Okay, I feel awkward. ;)
I'll look for you later.
xo

Ok. I finally get to sit down for a second. I am tired and ready for the summer. I wanted to buy this really nice coop that is a town house and has a pool and tennis court and a golf course but the maintenance itself is 1900/month. And I think that is ridiculous. Especially since there is also the mortgage payment and insurance and everything else. I need housing allowance. And a clothes allowance. How come you haven't written lately?

This is what seems to be the problem: I am retarded. Also, I have to do something good to write about. This combination is enough to slow me way down. Then I have to think it through and write it down and read it and censor everything I said that makes me appear to be crazy. Sometimes I have to delete the whole thing.

I consider these mini-posts. You're good at them.

Oh- I have those allowances that you said. The housing allowance is more than enough but the clothing allowance is only a few hundred a year and it's for uniforms, lame. Not that I use it to buy uniforms. So really that's also more than enough.

Are we ignoring what I said earlier?

You didn't say anything earlier. Just that you'll talk to me later and you won't tell me. I have to clean and wash dishes. I am tired and I refuse to use a dishwasher. Do you really get housing allowance? They pay your mortgage/rent? What else do you get?

I am good at mini-posts? I am flattered. I have to go clean up my kitchen and go to bed, you have to write new posts because these comment pages take forever to load on my berry (I have the really really really old version).
I will check back later to see if you respond.
About your post above, I don't complain unless I have a reason and I have a really good one. It was serious enough that I did not speak with him until Saturday and then I had to speak with him because we were surrounded by people and I am not into everyone knowing my business (plus there were people there I didn't know well). I still only speak with him when I have to and then I think I'll start speaking with him again sometime this week. I am starting to feel a little bad - he is really miserable and he called his bf to tell himt hat he thinks I am leaving. I only know because the bf's wife called me to tell me. Do married men really believe that their wives keep secrets? Because they don't.

How does this housing thing work? Do you get to chose where you live? If it pays my mortgage Roy could go back. He didn't tell me his rent was paid. Hmmm. I will ask about that. I will tell him I will forgive him if he goes back. Does the military take people back after seven years? I will have to look into this now.

I get an allowance for housing, clothes, and food tax free on top of my base salary. Plus 100% tuition assistance, and the GI Bill for more school when I get out if I want. If I were married I would get money for my wife, and if I had to go away for a while I'd get a separation allowance. When I go to sea, I get sea pay, and if I go somewhere dangerous I get hazard pay. Also I get 30 days vacation per year, and full health/dental, and military discounts at most places. Benefits out the ass.

Your earlier post - your reasons for not posting, basically you are old and maybe senile! Is that it?
: P

That sounds great except for that whole going to war and fighting thing. Maybe I'll join the military.
On second thought I'll ask Roy to go back. The military pays you to be married, do they also pay for children? Cause, ummm, I'm willing to have six.
Wouls they pay for a nanny?
The most important question is - with all these benefitsm could I afford to stay in NY or would I have to live in Kentucky? I refuse to be landlocked and I would never ever live in FL (which is too bad for Roy since that's where he wants to be - he was nice enough to compromise and promised to stop pushing for FL). FL has the highest number of pedophiles in this country. You couldn;t pay me enough to live there. I'd beafraid to leave my house. When we were in FL I refused to have L go more than 3 ft away from me. I was really paranoid which is not me at all.

In an effort to curb malicious comment posting by abusive users, I've enabled a feature that requires a weblog commenter to wait a short amount of time before being able to post again. Please try to post your comment again in a short while. Thanks for your patience. - is thisyour way of telling me to stop writing?

You know, this is not much fun - when I'm the only one writing. It islate and I am getting really cranky and this keyboard doesn't work properly.

Okay since it seems like you might be telling me that you have been telling him about our conversations I am going to get right to the point.
The thing I wanted to know was, did you know that I was right about to ask you to marry me, and is that why you ran away from me?
I have no idea what happened.

Roy knows nothing about this site or any posts that you wrote or comments that I do. I don't think he would be happy about some of the comments I made so I think I'll keep this a secret from him.
No I did not know that. I do not know what to say to that,

I don't think he wants to go back into the military now that he's out, but yes it is possible to do that. Also, if you are stationed in NY then they give you more money so that you can afford to live in NY. Cost of Living, covered. I don't think you get money for kids, and child care isn't covered either. And you have to live where they tell you, even Florida. Lots of pedophiles, you're right. I had one next door but he got kicked out because he didn't warn anyone.

I love that you call him Roy for me.

I will disable that delay tomorrow, I think I'll be okay. I wish I could turn off the approval for all comments too but I can't, too many spams.

I don;t think he wants to go back either but he liked it while he was there. He did it right after college because his friends and him were lazy and didn't want to work. They thought it would be fun to join the airforce and I guess for them it was. He was upstate for a while, but not in the city. I don't want to live upstate. I'll ask him, maybe he could go to California - I would love to live in Santa Monica. I doubt he'll do it. and I am pretty sure he will laugh his ass off when I ask him. I'll have to come up with a good reasn why he needs to do it,
There are pedophiles in the military? Aren;t you afraid?
I really gotta go wash dishes now, it's bugging me that they are in the sink. I'll try to check later on my berry thingie.
Why doesn't Roy wash dishes? Hmm, we agreed he would do the laundry and iron and clean the bathrooms but right now I feel like I shouldn't have agreed to cook and wash dishes. Somehow, it doesn;t seem fair. I do it every day - he does it about once a week,
I just realized I was tricked!
How are you K. Are you being moves anywhere or you staing in FL for now?

It would be really ironic if his real name was Roy! It's not.

This is the first time I got that message I thought you put it on there so I would stop this troubling stalking like behavior.

This keyboard is really bad. I type much better usually.

LOL the stalking behavior is not troubling dear, I've been waiting to talk to you for years.
About the pedophiles, I live off base, out in town with the civilians. I'm sure there might be some in the military too, but not that I know about.
You did get tricked, that isn't fair! You might need to renegotiate.
I am okay M. I miss you a lot.
They're going to move me in Dec or Jan. I can't wait around for the Bahrain invitation, I put in for some orders out of Whidbey Island, Washington- I would be deploying overseas a lot, Europe, and also some orders to a carrier that is going to Japan next year to stay. I don't want those orders but they were the best ones I could find. Unless something else comes up, I am just running out of time and I need to have them locked in by July. We'll see what happens.
How are you?

So you're definitely leaving FL?
I am good. Happy. Stikk punishing Roy. I want to move out of NY but I have to be smart about where I go. I assume my kids will all go back to NY for college or jobs and that makes me want to stay. I don't want to grow old and have my kids far (if I have more). Croatians don't do that. If my daughter decided to leave for college at 18 and then decided to live wherever college is I think I would have to nove there too. Problem is what if I have more kids and they are on opposite sides. Maybe I'll just go back home. Then the furthest they can be is 6 hrs away by car. That's not too bad. And we don't like the northerners so she would be even closer.
I have another two years to figure it out. That's the limit I gave myself.
I am married as you know. I wanted that. I wanted to be married and have kids and it is really quite good. (Except since Monday). I had a rocking Mother's Day. My birthday is being planned. Roy has no clue how old I am. I refuse to tell him. He's pretty sure I am between 26 and 33. Hilarious. No one wants to tell him mi age the poor man. L is convinced I am 19 and that's what she told her teacher. She also told everyone I was pregnant (not possible) because she wants a baby sister. I was informed that if I have a male child we would have to trade him in for a little girl. I was also told that if I don't want a real baby we could rent one at the hospital. I guess seeing newborns with signs on the cribs makes babies in hospitals look like they're for sale. The logic of a 6 year old. I am never visiting friends who had babies with her again.
My life is hectic. I acnnot even describe the social schedule of children between piano, ice skating, swimming, golf, school birthday parties and required relative visits I have no time to do anything. I have to schedule hair appointments weeks in advance because some kid might have a birthday party. I love it though. If I could I really would have at least two more. I guess I'll see in a couple of years.
Aside from that same old.
What about you. Do you like the military?

I might just stay in now that you're gone. I wanted to get married too.
I have to go to bed. Goodnight M.

You're young K. Not 19 like me but still. Don't knock it you don't know what will happen. You might be married by the end of the year. Good night K.